Ghosts
Bomb ShelterFrog Octopus Wolf
The Strikes
Not Hopeless
The Ghost Intrigue
Retro Is Really In This Year
Finish Line
Unsettled
A Manifest Destiny
Grows In Brooklyn
Get Me My Meds
Not Hopeless
Calling All Cars
The Strikes
Where Good
Intentions Go To Die
Red Room
Combustible/Jettison
Undefined
(Don't) Close Your
Eyes
Bang Bang Sing Sing
Frog Octopus Wolf
The Strikes
Not Hopeless
The Ghost Intrigue
Retro Is Really In This Year
Finish Line
Private Property
Meanwhile in
Greenpoint...
Bike rock revolution
This is your
second to last chance
For me to live
happily, you must die
Miguel
Next bus to New
Orleans
Consider this a
hostile takeover
Our hero exits
stage left...
Hurray for one
good eye
Boy Wonder
Nakatomi Plaza/Latterman split
re: Hey
I Wish
Everyone Was As Smart As Alison
by Chester Copperpot
Every
12 Seconds
Circles
Bottle Full
Of Jesus
Good Friday
How To Get
To Heaven (from Chattanooga, TN)
I Watched
A Baby Squirrel Fall From A Tree And Die
Infected
Lymphnodes
Pissed Off
Sailor
Bullshit
Spinning
Off
My Ex-David
Man of The
Year
They Don't Die
you'd never got it
when you were in the car
it's safe to say
you were always far
from all the ones who died and took their souls tonight
it would've suit you either way
'cause you were in the right place while we were in the wrong time
you said the right things while we drove all night
well i would guess i would know, guess i would know today
do you believe in fate? 'cause this feels like being played
i'm dropping out
it's been all too long
and i've been winning
all your games i'm sure
except the one where nuclear missiles fire
and don't you forget
it's not a joke when you can't sleep at night
or dream the nightmare where she's just vaporized
well i would guess i would know, guess i would know today
do you believe in fate? 'cause this feels like being played
i've been a pawn for so long
but sometimes think nothing's wrong
if i drive all the way westÊ
is that far enough to miss the war tests
well i would guess i would know, guess i would know today
do you believe in fate? 'cause this feels like being played
well i would guess i would know,Êguess i would know today
it's gone
go where?
you're home
it's over now well i guess i would know?
his head on the wall
he's making a call
and all he hears is just a monotone
did you hear what they said?
they're breaking the ground
so here it goes now watch the pieces fall
with 40 on fireÊ
and less than 20 alive
the 80 here are in the dead zone
i think it's time that we leave
in spite of all the disease
we can make it if we go invisible
she said "hey wait just a sec
i didn't hear what you said"
she's really going deafÊ
myÊsilence is incredible
so we're feeling the walls
and trying to shout out a call
but all we hear is nothing that will save us
the nights are just as long as decided for you
ghosts wander around disturbing all theÊ
peace that you can find and you know all the
Ê
days are filled with so much artificial light
we're 90 days in
and bleeding out of our skin
we're barely living but we're hoping to go soon
you're torn up limb from limb
but there are much worse things
like miss america who's actually still breathing
and yeah, it's really that bad
where's all the food that we had?
she's really going deafÊ
myÊsilence is incredible
so we're feeling the walls
and trying to shout out a call
but all we hear is nothing that will save us
the nights are just as long as decided for you
ghosts wander around disturbing all theÊ
peace that you can find and you know all the
Ê
days are filled with so much artificial light
'cause we will always be there
and you will always be loved
so don't you worry about
hoping to be found
'cause we will always be there
and you will always be loved
please don't worry about...
and so we're 90 days in
and bleeding out of our skin
Ê
we're barely living but we're hoping to go soon
you're torn up limb from limbÊ
but there are much worse things
like miss america who's actually still breathing
oh god she's actually still breathing
oh god she's actually still breathing
passions on the rise cause once again the boar have found their prey.
we've got this document proving that you aren't quite what you say.
we caught it this time but will it change a thing?
the system's not corrupt, it was set up this way.
and when the camera's off and the lights are down and you've got them alone again,
what then?
you think it's different; modernity means justice's always served.
but the victims stay the same; the powerless the poor the underserved.
in a just world you're the ones dead.
Guards
'cause i don't feel it, i don't feel it coming in
so i'm going down, i'll find a way out
there's too many guards,Êand they're all so wired into the night
there's no cover, don't wake the others
i think we can make it,Êi think we can make it all the way
that's what i said,Êit's hard when you're the soldier and the general
do you still feel it? Êdo you still feel it coming in?
when i hear your voice, you question our methods
we tried to get it all away but our cover's blown
they try to keep it all the same and so we gotta go
and all the time that we spent and now they know
we never got it all away because our cover's blown
do you still feel it?
do you still feel it?
what if you don't feel it?
your ideas die in cold blood as your house burns down in flames
you wanted to be there but you had to be at home
you wanted to see it but it tore right through your soul
you wanted to be there but you had to be at home
you wanted to see it, right?
It Came From Outside
bring forth the lions and release them from their cage
it's time to feast on that which we worked so hard to gain
take it away, take it for a spin now (they're coming in)
last one out is in for a showdown (they're coming)
recite the words you memorized, run 'til it hurts you way inside
you'll wait for one of us to break, don't hold your breath 'cause it's too late
i'm gone and you're busted, i figured all you out
you're done, disenchanted, i can't believe this went on for so long
the time is right, the sky is falling (they're coming in)
the bleeding is a major warning (they're coming)
recite the words you memorized, run 'til it hurts you way inside
you'll wait for one of us to break, don't hold your breath 'cause it's too late
recite the words you memorized, run 'til it hurts you way inside
you'll wait for one of us to break, don't hold your breath 'cause it's too late
recite the words you memorized, run 'til it hurts you way inside
you'll wait for one of us to break, don't hold your breath 'cause it's too late
recite the words you memorized until it hurts you
you'll wait for one of us to break, don't hold your breath 'cause it's too late, it's too late, it's too late
and you recognize every time that everyone thinks beasts are falling down
and you recognize every window broken pieces fly, land as glass knives
in '17 wasted my eyes dry
4000 days on all four sides
in '17 wasted my eyes dry
4000 days and there's no more sides
we fought our way through the night
we fought our way through the night
we fought our way through the night
Requiem
my body's bound again
and crushed under the weight
of all this history
these things i can't forget
and if i break free
i still have far to run
for every two steps
she'll take one
did you learn that somewhere?
do you think it entitles you?
what you're worried about, figure out
see i'm across the walkway
this is a requiem
for a clan that's parting ways
you'll find the evidence
stained on videotapes
i've learned so many things
like the money is thicker than blood
and so raise your glass
here's a toast for one
did you learn that somewhere?
do you think it entitles you?
what you're worried about, figure out
see i'm across the walkway
and all my times that i knew i was gonna lose
and still i soldiered on like everyone does too
but tonight, if it's not right then i won't see this through
peaking out, i hope it's all done soon
it's so loud, i hope it's quiet soon; when you lose
Words
so... welcome home, it's been quite a while
i don't mean to impose but can you spare some time?
'cause i've been barely, dodging the bullets and
diving head-first into what's my
life and i'm afraid i forgot all
i want to breathe, i need you for air and
i want toÊ feel, i'm cold to the touch and
i close my eyes, and when they open are you by the door?
this is so hard for me, you should probably sit down
i've rehearsed this in my head about a thousand times now
just want toÊsay that i'm covered by ghosts and it
won't stop and they are all moving in
silence; Êand nothing is keeping me warm
i want to breathe, i need you for air and
i want to feel, i'm cold to the touch and
i close my eyes, and when they open are you by the door?
please keep me warm
The Ghost Intrigue
i've got to know about your disguise
you blend into blood and wine
the ghost intrigue and fingernail leads
the whiteness wraps itself around you
it's not what you would think
i hope it's all ok by you
it's over
we have killed oh so many
and now i can't feel a thing
please don't be afraid
i've come to know your watery eyes
they flood right through the city turnstiles
it's not what you would think
i hope it's all ok by you
it's over
we have killed oh so many
and now i can't feel a thing
please don't be afraid
if it's all too much
if it's all too much
if it's all too much don't be afraid
your watery eyes fit your disguise
they flood right through the city turnstiles
decades of feel-good sitcoms aren't change. it's bullshit that plays on tv.
it's alright, cause you know better. we all know better.
watch out! it's coming back again.
the revolution won't be offense against defense. you're not fun. just loud.
it's not ironic, it's just sad that your throwback is so impressive.
grandpa would be proud.
they're lying all the time but we still believe them.
our progress is televised so why not believe it?
but when you find a hearty laugh can't wash the blood from off your hands
and all the victims stay the same
are you still rebelling?
Finish Line
you call yourself tired, i'm just as tired as you are
so go get some rest before we go travel so far
we'll leave in the morning, bags have been packed for years now
i'll set the alarms, one for intruders and one to wake us
this rhythm's displaced now that the ground is shifting
don't step on the cracks, it's tempting but not forgiving
i'm running around here, try to escape the panic
'cause you can't predict whether this party is sold out
and i am, and i am, and i am so...
and i am, and i am, and i am so scared
you say we should stop, i'll call us in sick
who cares if they fire us?Ê we'll just quit
you say we should stop, i'll call us in sick
who cares if they fire us?Ê we'll just quit
my stomach's upset, i think i'll just stay here inside
'cause my comfort zone has boundaries i don't define
i'm worn and i'm weathered, heart's on its last few beats now
and now we have seen the party is already sold out
and i am, and i am, and i am so...
and i am, and i am, and i am so scared
you say we should stop, i'll call us in sick
who cares if they fire us?Ê we'll just quit
you say we should stop, i'll call us in sick
who cares if they fire us?Ê we'll just quit
here it is: your new frontier. you play cowboy. who
plays indian? your words carry meaning... affect meaning. aren't we
brave to settle the wasteland? convince ourselves and history
will follow. pretend that we made this... we deserve this. here we are
with nothing to say. there's nothing to say. it's too late for
apologies now. there's nothing to say. streets bleached clean
with bloodstained brushes and veiled deceit.
fuck all this posturing, i'll smash this guitar into two
hearts broken, sliced for us to eat, last one out is the first to leave
a cancer ride, the culture's made of rain
so we slip and slide, and then we start again
i'm dreaming homesick, i'm drinking just the same
you're driving far boy, you're driving us away
fuck all this posturing, i'll smash this guitar into two
hearts broken sliced for us to eat, last one out is the first to leave
a cancer ride, the culture's made of rain
so we slip and slide, and then we start again
it's in the room, get nervous now, and buy your way out
we'll play it cool, now pay it up
you said you'd never, of course you're willing tonight
you said you'd never, of course you're willing inside
waiting for the time... wait for motivation... waiting for the world
to stop so i can catch my breath. but the system carries on and history
keeps repeating these patterns stitched inside the lining of our
culture. with water-logged limbs i stay pressed to the couch, paralyzed
with knowing that there's nothing we can do. so leave this cartoon on
so i can get to sleep tonight. try to keep our eyes closed so
we'll see no evil.
we'll march on searing our apathy into their flesh. their bones crack
beneath the economic motivations.
economic missionaries export their faith, preaching the words of their
gods. "behold! the free market! bow down to our dollar!"
complacent, say 'progress', we don't question if it's true. now it's
too late. souls stained by blood so thick it soaked right through.
can't shake this floating feel. nothing feels like real.
nothing feels.
looks as though we're stuck here. i think that's a lie.
stop feeling isolated. stop hoping start screaming!
they think we're all insane, the general "all"
so here's a general "fuck you!"
like headless-yes men
our laughter is not our own
inside kickers everywhere
i will nod your "yes" or "no"
and if you answer moves we'll kill it
looking through the cross-hairs, look what's there
"hey, yo, that looks like me!"
so take the shot we're counting on this
can't this be easy?
i guess this must be work
self-define, self-serving, anything to stop his bleeding
we're destructing, we're distracting, we're all dead from inhalation
in now and out by april, this party's beat so let's leave
in now and out by april, this party's beat so let's leave
this killing field's cold
can't they resign tonight?
this killing field's cold
what'd they design tonight?
grey cold, the night rain, taxis scared tonight
hands joined, lips part, ring 'round black heart
you've got this laid out all wrong
you've turned your back and left me high and dry
and i am not so ready, willing anymore
my problem's reaching its own end
my patience is walking out with you
the sunset, our movie
two gun shots, two dead men
try not to choke on your words
try not to stumble down the stairs
a swift hit backhand recourse, clutching my own lifeline by my side
don't forget this
based on instinct
trial and error
my problem's reaching it's own end
my patience is walking out with you
the sunset, our movie
two gun shots, two dead men
pay on credit and you'll get this:
a license, a waiver. the damage is more than you'll
pay
got the word out on your error:
your mistake, my problem. the final words and rules for this game
have changed
don't forget this
based on instinct
trial and error
we bridge the upswing
don't forget this
based on instinct
trial and error
try not to choke on your words
Where Good Intentions Go To Die
Scripted and proscribed.
Read , just not between the lines.
Did they learn you how the ancient
Grip, it drags and drips
Justify when he injects, (coat the spine) with
empty threats, (warm) ignorant bliss (applied)
Applied by one absent iron fist.
There's a factory, a ministry
A pyramid scheme greased complicit
(Pump out meaning on the cheap) so you can afford
To feel that stigmata burn, (let the)
Blood from your wrists as a working cure
To heal the unworthy others
Who don't bleed in metaphor.
Can you feel the love?
seals your lips with the word.
God is a shout in the street
like you never heard.
Scripted and proscribed.
Read, just not between the lines
(Like I used to). Like you still do
Lean your fevers on the fence
Hedge your bets with confidence
Part the velvet rope with one command
So you won't see me there.
(I'll be relaying facts on the ground
Your messages postmarked for the clouds)
Returned, (confirmed) without a sound.
Sweating everyday miracles
Banking bad luck on ritual
This ship of sentimental fools
Is on its way out,
(And we're going down)
Drop the lead that lines our pockets
Break the promise that keeps us honest:
The worst, it won't last long
The best is yet to come.
The worst won't last long
The best is yet to come.
we're walking, talking in 16 bit, but when the lights go out
a party funeral flickering, and meanwhile they just sat
in a daze, these are darkening days let's find another way
the new dance, sing ABC go 123
at last a new chance to correct the past and
we'll give back what we never had
(a clock ticks, signals mix)
what sparks our fire burns them out
appreciate your total curt reply
(roll your eyes, roll your eyes)
"the lies are on our side"
we're dancing, laughing with the kids
they're teaching us to think
PTA caffeine you need a fix, please stick it in my veins
drain all this pain, and drink my urgency, the frequencies rebound
feedback
kids don't ever lack the notion, "is he lying?"
"son, just trust him". kids don't ever lack the notion,
"is he lying?" "son, just trust him." kids don't eve
asleep no i'm not here wait
wake up your sweet dream is over
get back to being thinly spread across
10,000 miles of subway lines
turn back to one year ago
sky high school exit the domino
drinking the rain and running the market
a faucet, the leakage, the truth must be borrowed
and all the counterpoints, lining up and down
our gift was your favorite but we didn't make it
eyes wide open
cars crashing all around
red lights don't stop us
we save all the fuck ups
crisscross US one more time
cross out what's real with our crime
getting a second, but taking a minute
too long and now we are right where we figured
this street looks awfully familiar
the end is getting nearer
i'm thinly spread, reach for escaping
kicking out doors, alarms are blaring
and all the counterpoints, lining up and down
our gift was your favorite but we didn't make it
eyes wide open
cars crashing all around
red lights don't stop us
we save all the fuck ups
i'm sorry we're not there, our van is idle
i'm sorry we're not there, your hieness (your whatever title)
we're all still breathing, but we are running out of air
the gates are closing, escape while you still can
my eyes are shutting, and we've been driving all night
we drift to one side, we won't be lucky this time
she didn't know to find
she didn't know to find that all the answers, the answers come at a
price
and she didn't know to look
she didn't know, to look under the table ... our ending's been taken
she's gotta wait too long
she's gotta wait to find out what went wrong
she's gotta hold that thought
she's gotta hope for all that nothing's wrong
she said
i've gotta wait too long
can't you see that something's wrong?
i've gotta wait too long
can't you see that it's so wrong?
and it's not my fault
tell the truth and now it's all gone
and it's not my fault
don't expect me to go on
she didn't know to find
she didn't know to find that all the answers, the answers come at a
price
and they didn't know, it'd be
they didn't know the wait could be forever
she's gotta wait too long
she's gotta wait to find out what went wrong
she'd always run too slow
and now her life is all she has to hold
she said
i've gotta wait too long
can't you see that something's wrong
i've gotta wait too long
and now i know that something's wrong
and it's not my fault
"it's for the better" no, it's all gone
and it's not my fault
don't expect me to go on
these wintry months just won't ever end
we'll always wonder... define the sight but then mistake the sound
i'm going under, i'll see you when the time has run all out
dropped the ball to the ground
the rolling thunder
my catastrophic
burning tear drops
fanning flames on the face
crooked woodwork pounding nails
drilled in my skull
a tortured martyr
dripping blood on
our eyes at attention
fanning flames on the face
our eyes at attention
gives us the words to sing
our notes dive off this cliff tonight
one last chance to feel this
i'm crawling out of my skin
gives us the words to sing
our notes dive off this cliff tonight
into the vastness of this
don't close your eyes
dropped the ball to the ground
the rolling thunder
my catastrophic
burning tear drops
fanning flames on the face
crooked woodwork pounding nails
drilled in my skull
a tortured martyr
dripping blood on
our eyes at attention
gives us the words to sing
our notes dive off this cliff tonight
one last chance to feel this
i'm crawling out of my skin
gives us the words to sing
our notes dive off this cliff tonight
into the vastness of this
don't close your eyes
damn this silence it's so defeating
cancelled checks and we're running nowhere
any other way counts as cheating
lead the way so that i'll believe this
dropped the ball to the ground
the rolling thunder
my catastrophic
burning tear drops
fanning flames on the face
crooked woodwork pounding nails
drilled in my skull
a tortured martyr
dripping blood on
our eyes at attention
they'll drown in this river, a hell of broken promise
"you'll be better" or deader
with no good intentions, just an intent to invent labor
so if you're not quite worth the effort, the tide will sweep you into
Never
bang bang sing sing
rehab or lab rat?
a wasted life
blindfolds and bondage
the tools that keep you down and out
(the world is railing against you)
lost not found
(i'll take the wheel this last time)
we're caught in the system, a grid that we can't solve?
just grab the moment and walk with confidence and close your eyes
'cause tonight we're all riding the same thin subway line
so does this speak, your lies of love, 'cause i can't tell
if you break this chains, that bind you here, you are set free
but they don't agree, let us brace for their fall
(my dying wish) and i am not fine in here
it's over now so shut your mouth or let the blood keep coming and keep fighting me and her and he ... i'll ... try to explain ... yeah ... but what's the use? it's all news to you and read the fine print all bets are off time to throw down $1000 punches here comes the first one why don't you understand that this thing has lost all feeling? let's bring it back again and get excited for what's about to be open doors and no more hiding out building foundations for the new existence finally got our feet on solid ground take off the blast shields and we can see roll the dice and start moving on now it's our turn so raise a fist and we'll scream together fuck this and to think it doesn't have to end this way you can't cast a shadow on me anymore it's over now so shut your mouth or let the blood keep coming and keep fighting me and her and he ... i'll ... try to explain it's tried and true you will lose it's tried and true
bike rock revolution and pot smoke conclusions at 2 am and we're eating again at the same place we ate last night and i say we should have shared the fries what's yours is mine did you know there's a fence around every last mile of the U$A we're not ok we're breaking down together so lock up all your doors and pack up your belongings we're heading to the shore and try cleaning up the mess that other people left the pile is piling up and now it's over our heads do we fall asleep instead? so what we never knew and to think we're going on in circles eat again sleep instead we're breaking down together so lock up all your doors and pack up your belongings we're heading to the shore and try cleaning up the mess that other people left the pile is piling up and now it's over our heads do we fall asleep instead? so what we never knew and we'll never know what if we never awoke? never awoke again? what if?
This is your second to last chance
a household breakdown iced tears for two enough to make your blood my fuel you run on empty a few ricoculous claims wait that's yours we bleed the same and while i'm drinking can i buy one for you? no six long years and eight months to the day in your mind i haven't aged and what about him? is he really there? or is he stuck in 88? and while i'm drinking can i buy one for you? no we're young forever young or trapped? and while i'm drinking can i buy one for you? so here's to another year a stagnant lie and moving dreams and while i'm drinking can i buy one for you?
For me to live happily, you must die
are you all about this? i didn't think you would and now it'ts all understood i'm all bones tonight can't feel the sighs breath out my neck cold from no skin tonight water blue eyes cut to my bones i am bleeding red is the wine drink? this blood will save me? and so this time to let this go you must die by my hands
welcome back to town they said to me and it's not too great to be back or good to be gone neither's forever can i make either better for me? either or fuck summer how was yours? stick to your guns and i will come around pulling triggers pointing fingers at nothing in particular standing on this roof city lights are lighter and thinking back it's not much brighter looking down scares me looking up scares me which way is my home city lights are lighter and thinking back it's not much brighter looking down scares me looking up scares me which way is my ... stick to your guns and i will come around pulling triggers pointing fingers at nothing in particular pull the trigger look down down forever pull the trigger
it's times like these when just simply breathing takes everything i am the time for action's arrived and the answers are multiple choice a-scream b-sleep c-run and i've chosen all the above scream sleep run should have done this long ago next bus and a good book and i'm gone something's wrong there are one thousand ways out of here and i'm going over my plans this marauder's map can show me every secret exit: give up give in give out there's no looking back i know you'll say that there's no point "you can't solve anything by running away" i'll just disappear so i'll reply "that could be true but i'll find out on my own i can find out on my own" i can hardly breathe but i'm still here so i guess you're right and if this book is as far as i can get this book is where i'll be
Consider this a hostile takeover
once again our songs will fall on deaf ears and if slamming makes you happy then crack my head open age four so young and yet he screams in pain motivations feuled by hate i swear to god this time with blood coming from my eyes i swear to god this time this is not ok so here goes one thousand tears to drown you i know you cannot swim i won't reach out you'll pull me in and you'll see blood dripping from my hands as all the water turns to red you've caught me in the act this noose is going around your neck i hope it's a quick death and your heart stops beating
so i've been up this holiday week and the late nights are finally catching up with me so catch some sleep or just pretend that the last 2 years have not happened they push and pull htey tug away "you've all been pawns in my chess game" and it servew you right for your self-service; the end? checkmate again so tonight i'll wait, i hope you get here soon and you'll wave goodbye. i didn't have a clue conjure up a phantom. invent a war. this machine has done this all before old dog. same trick. newmeans; ithink....i'm getting really fucking scared and it helps me just to know you care so tonight i'll wait. i hope you get here soon and you'll wave goodbye. i didn't have a clue and i've missed yet another chance at kind words and laughs (i'll hold your hand. but don't hold so tight. you weigh me down) i'm stuck in no man's land. is this the end? (don't run so fast. where are you?) the city's burning. they'll burn another down and as we're getting older, this life is getting so much colder it's what we think. so what do we do? thought and action. thought and action so tonight i'll wait i hope you get here soon (i'll hold your hand. but don't hold so tight. you wiegh me down) and you'll wave goodbye. i didn't have a clue (don't run so fast. where are you? i'll be right here) and i've missed yet another chance. at kind words and laughs (i'll hold your hand. but don't hold so tight. you weigh me down) i'm stuck in no man's land. is this the end?(don't run so fast. where are you?)
kick out the knees that hold me up poke my head around the corner and pull back chipping away at my resolve keeps me grounded where i stand the future is boundless in this fishbowl so we'll shine mock heroic roll on waves of conviction orchestrate this subversion cause we've only got one shot and it's all so big so show me something that i couldn't predict tonight is the beginning of the end walking with the blinders on not stopping for anyone late nights we crawl inside the machine you see what i breathe but still you can settle abort mission. drop the match as if it was ours all along to detach bucking a trend of decline pledging allegiance to our own design.
when was the last time that you cried? and everything inside wasn't locked up so tight you're so unorganized and scared but so am i but tonight, as bullets fly, and my heart is rendered useless...you used to make me so alive. you're breaking me they want us all to get in line and die for them. die for them and i guess it's what's expected but i'll break this. we'll break this? we'll break this down for a while come to my rooftop and you'll see. and have a drink on me how does it feel? well you're so different. we're so different (enemies?) but then how was i to know. just all everything about your world? (our own cold war. did you just blink and twitch?) how was i to know? they want us all to get in line and die for them. die for them and i guess it's what's expected but i'll break this. we'll break this. we'll break this there's a fire in our hearts. they want to put out we're living off the faint. and haunting.... sound that keeps us wanting. that keeps us wanting. more you'll never get it. you don't get...
And so her message begins, "Hello, I am drunk." And I think, "Oh my God É what is it now?" ItÕs been weeks since youÕve said a word. "Ha!" Hell no. I donÕt think so. ItÕs not funny; no youÕre not funny. YouÕre laughing, and, IÕll bet money on you. So is it you IÕm talking to? "Ha!" Hell no. I donÕt think so. And so my answer begins, "Hello, how are you? I am fine. ThatÕs great youÕve got numbers. And five well, thatÕs a lot for you. You are so, so way cool." Typing every word and I just meant everything I said. IÕm not holding back a thing, I am not whatÕs tying you down. ItÕs so odd, to see your words, but then, how am I supposed to tell? Are you mad? Are you sad? You seem bitter. ShouldnÕt you make those calls? I trusted and you fucked me. So IÕll never trust again. I wish IÕd never met you. I wish IÕd never met you. And five well, thatÕs a lot for you. I wish IÕd never met you. And fuck your friends, too.
I Wish Everyone Was As Smart as Alison
So if weÕre up all night again, and weÕre talking about my friends, remind me to tell Jesse he was right. I donÕt think Brook would like to hear that the drawings in his wallet were not clear. Those watermelons are way too big for me. WeÕre driving, IÕm singing, "The world is really 20 miles away." And she says, without hesitation, "Why canÕt everyone be as smart as me?" So that night IÕm on her couch, itÕs almost morning light again. DidnÕt this happen last Tuesday? I remember the Promise Ring. IÕm never sleeping anymore, IÕm always listening and talking to you. So what the hell, itÕs 5am again. So IÕm guessing that I am sick all the time Ôcause IÕm scared to be alone. If I ride this out, and I do not say a word, then maybe we can still be friends.
Hands folded on my desk, saliva dripping down, waking from my dream.ÊI sat here for hours on end, looking down.ÊI can't go back again.ÊLife's too short for me.ÊFacing forward, head turned backwards.
"Are you crazy?ÊSay that again É you said you want me to do what?" "That's what I said, you heard me so, drink it down and no one will ever know." "Why did I come around that night, I knew something was not right." "It'll be our secret, no one will know, that's the way that life goes." "Say it's not fair, I just don't care anymore what's right or wrong.ÊI'm here for you and you're here for me and if you disagreeÉ" Circles turn round themselves, never ending forever turning. "What you've done to me will come back to haunt you so you see that you can do what you want, and say what you're gonna say to me.ÊBut then I'll come back, and you won't know what hit you." "Say it's not fair, I just don't care anymore what's right or wrong.ÊI'm here for you and you're here for me and if you disagreeÉ" "I'm gonna show you how it goes.ÊYou're laughing and smiling 'cause you don't know the mighty powers that I can call your ignorance will be your fall." Your fall. "I hate you. 'Cause I'm still here and you can't catch me.ÊI guess that you have failed.ÊBut look at where you are and why I didn't hear your call." Your ignorance.ÊYour downfall.
It's 3am, locked out again.ÊCan't get in I'll stay outside instead.ÊI'm surprised by all the noise, that's drowning out the shouts of girls and boys, naked and dancing, they're hands are clapping.Ê"Show it to me" says the kid show's laughing at the one with little feet.ÊYou think it's wrong but who's to say it's wrong to lock out everyone and live your life and die your death by yourself in your private bottle fullÉ It's 9am, get dressed again and out the door that locked me out at 3:10.ÊHere come's the mom, running up the stairs.Ê"Let me in" and the kid says, "I don't care."ÊAnd then there's we, who never knew about the crazy shit and now you're unglued.ÊI don't every wanna say, "You think it's wrong but who's to say it'sÉ" So now I know of all the hate that's come from you upon myself.ÊI'll smash this bottle full of hate from you upon myself.
It's over, the light has returned to red My bloody red divine, so high, tastes like cheap red wine At the party's dawn, I'll sing that song, to prolong the Scourge, the walk of the avenue, the place, the placeÉ You're 20 minutes away 20 Years are hard enough some times just want to get off forever, or maybe just a couple days, 'cause forever isn't far away but it sures feels closer than you If we tied these hands, wrap this heart in a blanket The blood would seep through, and my bloody red divine Just smile, drink your cheap red wine, have a drink on me But how much more red is willing to bleed, one last drop, one last beat But on that FridayÉ
How To Get To Heaven (From Chattanooga, TN)
I saw you here today and when I waved in your direction you didn't see me and I was wondering if it's 'cause I'm so short and you're so much more taller than me. "It's funny 'cause it's true", it's sad I can't remember the last time but I do recall the first.ÊAnd what you did to meÉyou thought I was the bad guy in another action movie.ÊAnd it gives me a headache or a headrush, whichever one you please to be is fine with me just don't expect respect, expect much less.ÊSo I guess that was a wave goodbye, so bye bye.
I Watched a Baby Squirrel Fall From a Tree and Die
I used to maker her knees weak.ÊNow I'm the one who can't
stand.
I woke up there alone, I woke up for the first time in my life.
I am walking south on 3rd and they just walked a batter out to first but you're on your way home where you'll cease to be you.ÊYour lease is up, you passed your turn.ÊI wish I did not have to learn I lost this dance, you lost your chance and now you're leaving me behind.ÊYou can retreat back to your safe house. Burn it down all the way to the ground.ÊBurn this away.ÊAshes.
The thorn inÊyour side, remember me? Your rose, your dove, your cry, "the size of your eyes" the air is thinning around you press here, deflate my words "I'll count to two" can't believe you waited, it's gone your way so you can sayÉ so look through these here yellow glasses, they make it so much brighter so you'll see and many times I've walked down, so foolish in your trees "it seems your dreams I see" the sun has set in the East, and bye, for a fortnight "the night, I'll count too" up til 5am again, hoped those nights would never end "watch out falling rocks" the late nights I don't mind, I'm just scared of what I'll find "darkness rises, above alone" so if you stay with me, then I cannot make any gurantees "tried my best to make you smile" miss the days of falling rain, the high seas, please stay with me I don't know anymore Sinking, falling with the weight of gold, I'm not there yet
I think that it's bull shit Why do I gotta put up with it? All the words you say Your smart ass lines never go away I think that it's bull shit How good have I been to you? You never give in return For all the favors you have not earned Your super ego lies And tells you things you'll never abide byÉ Your sighs have become the background of the days It's what's to be expected when É I can see them from a mile away i think that it's bull shit How many times do I have to say it? I'm tired of living this way Wait for the phone to ring to hear you say, "I think this is bull shit" and then I'll say, "Well, no shit."ÊI've tried to fix this before I need your help so that this won't go one anymore
Found the time to tell myself That I don't like this time that I've found If I stop too long then it may be for good Has it been so long and is this wrong? When I look on back at the mice that ran, or how I used to sing (I'd like to say hello) I was young, so forgive my words that hurt My best songs they hate me know, no they don't, I'm just growing up (I'm paraniod) We used to drive all night To go nowhere and back and then we'd just drive on (leaving behind) And though, I know those days, will never go away From this place to get away Well I never asked too much, or did I?ÊI'll guess we'll never know Well I turned you round in circles, sent you spinning off to bed É Will you let me do that again?
If I tried harder, the words would come out but you have got to listen to just how I'm missing you.ÊI would drive for hours to let this flower grow.ÊIt's not time forgotten, wasted.ÊTime cannot escape this. Car crash, twisted metal And shrapnel in my mouth Lost life next to me Running past lights red Let me off.
I'm closing all the doors, I'm waiting for the world You'll forget to apologize, your disguise hasn't worked this time So take off you're scary mask, put on the face, that I knew I knew you before, before you became who you are And I want to know why everyone is changing 'Cause I'm still the same, the kid that you met years before As I'm getting older, the world seems so much further away Drinking another 40 again, euphoria here I come God, I know I'm still the same, or maybe she's right and I have changed So I'm just getting drunker and drunker 'cause that's what drinkers do And so I'm the Man of the Year, congratulate me 'cause IÕm still here I'm still here.